Thanks for your caring words, as a respons to my post!
When life has hit you over and over again straight in the face... you get effected by it. I know that I'm thinking in the wrong way. Me thinking that way and also having OCD... isn't a good combination!
My psychologist once gave me the same kind of list you're talking about, Junerain. A list of "wrong- thinking"... I know that several of them is a part of my daily living. When I was in therapy I came a long way fighting these thoughts or as Tomi said; feelings. I was inspired and motivated back then. Now all my power seem to be gone... Dealing with life isn't easy, as you all know. You can handle one set-back... but 1 2 3 4... at the same time... waaaaaaaaaaayyyyy hard!
I know that there are those struggling with even more difficult stuff than me... but I'm walking in my own mud... that's where I live. By me saying that, I really don't mean that I don't care for all you others- handling rough times in life! I so care and think a lot about you, my friends!
Yes, Tomi... you're wonderful... so ok... maybe I'm just a tiny bit wonderful too then... that wasn't easy to write!

I've got a lot to learn to get as cool as you though... I'm half your age, so...
I feel a bit foolish now that I've let you know, how my brain works...
Thanks again for reading and thanks for replying!!!