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Originally Posted by touchingsaturn
i don't know what to call that.. or if there's a label for it... but it sounds like a hyperactivity in your brain... where you're overanalyzing & making judgements of insignificant details that normally you would just tune out... sometimes the meds we take help the most by just giving us the chance to "crawl out of our own head space" and live life ... does that make sense on any level??
when i get thoughts like that, encroaching on me.. and i can't shake it.. that i attribute to obsessive compulsive disorder... for which i'm not being treated... it's not severe... but ugh is it irritating when it kicks in.. like a light switch that's flipped ON and then duck taped in place... no matter how ridiculous the thought pattern... and even though my logical self can identify that i'm literally obsessing & it's causing me to overthink whatever it is that's stuck in my brain... and that is causing me to come to ludacris conclusions about insignificant things... i still can't shake it... eventually it passes (although never quickly enough)... and i'm always SOOOOOO grateful when those 'episodes' are over... is that anything like what you're describing??
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LOL YES!!!!! It is the most annoying damn thing I have ever experienced in my life....not that the depression and the cycling isnt....but then you got the peanut gallery in the back of your head trying to upset you and it really makes it worse....And that stupid little voice will try and try to convince me that something is real or true when I know in reality it isnt, and then I get all mad or upset....or I will replay something that happened over in my head days later and think what I shouldve done, and the little thought voice will chime in and piss me off lol.....and then I end up getting mad all over again....sometimes the little thought voice has more of a paranoid quality to it, and then other times it has more of an anger quality to it......either way, im glad the Topamax exterminated it lol.....and try explaining it to other non-bi polar people lol.....they look at me like I have 20 personalities going on inside of me, when really that isnt what it is....its myself talking to myself in my head is the best way to describe it.....things that make you go hmmmmmmmmmmmm lol.......Well I hope you are enjoying your weekend.....me, myself, and I and the other voices are lol.... 
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Diagnosed Bi-Polar II and Awesome in 2011
Currently take 50mg of Topamax, 30mg of Celexa, 100mg Provigil, 2mg of Cyproheptadine, and .5mg of Xanax as needed....
Pour contents in blender, add ice.....enjoy.....
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