I woke up today feeling so defeated. I can't shake it. I just want to hide and disappear. This was brought on by a series events. I work with a bunch of negative men. It seems like they feed off each other. It just exhausts my own energy working with them. My boss is a control freak and contributes heavily to this negativity. I hate going to meetings with them. I tend to be the only positive human being in the meetings.

My two boys want to marry women who don't share our family values and the husband is going through a midlife crises where he wants to move to an island because that would make him the happiest but I just don't so I'm left with the dreary sense that our marriage will not survive this. I feel like I have no hope as the men in my life are draining every once of energy I have.