thanks all,

been reading about cutting your family out of your life and i think im going to do this, at least for a few years with minimal contact.

i dont need to be in this pain, and suddenly i feel happier and more hopeful. the authority they have over my mind is unnecessary and im not afraid to look after myself and find security and safety in me and my future. suddenly im more concerned about looking after my health, sorting out my work situation and going out and finding friends wherever they may be!

family are toxic and the pressure to stay loyal to them is ignorant idiocy. i dont need this pain at all and im going to think for me for once.