Okay so, about 16-17 days ago, I went to the ER with severe stomach pain and they prescribed me a Fentanyl patch for 15 days and referred me to a pain management clinic because of the unbearable amount of stomach pain I live with.

So, I called to set up an appointment and the nurse said they didn't want to take me on as a patient.

So, my patch just ran out, and not only am I in horrific stomach pain; I'm shaking, having cold sweats, can't sit still and my mind is racing. I'm so aggitated.

I don't know if it's from the patch. Or mania. Or both? I'm going through a hard time with my marriage as well as my health. I haven't left the house in weeks. I don't go out for anything, I just lay in bed. I don't want to move. Or socialize. I just want to go to sleep, and not wake up.

I keep praying to God to help me cope and He doesn't. I need some encouraging words or something because I'm starting to give up.

I'm mentally and physically in hell.