I feel good. I have a pretty stable situation in my life. Things are going well. I go to school and work part time. I'm not starving. I have clothes. I rent out a place. It's a good. I have people who love me and a partner who's always by my side.

But occasionally, I start day dreaming about committing suicide. I would stop what I'm doing, or if I'm already stopped, I would envision myself about to execute my own death in whatever shape or form it may be.

I'm kinda at a loss at why my brain just goes there. I do get stressed about certain things occasionally, but it's not an extreme / life or death situation that occurs to me. There's no reason why I should think about death and I should be happy with things I got. Why? Cause I got them. And they are very important to me.

The dream frightens me yet it relieves/releases me. The thought of the dream doing the combo of feelings alone quite irk me actually...

Does anyone else kinda go on these suicidal day dreams once in a while?