I am in what looks like a rusty underground system and I get stuck on a Ferris Wheel. The "People I am with are not human but animal, rats, mice etc.

The Ferris Wheel gets down to the let off stand but we are quickly pulled into a lying down position & cannot move, then the huge knives cut us up.

This has caused me (someone who was never afraid of death), to fear death and fear what might happen after it. This is really alien to me, I have died at one point and from that have no fear of death or the process. So what is happening? I simply cannot understand the switch. I am afraid to leave my grandson, I know that much.