Hi, I have been clinically depressed for over 5 years. I sought help through mental health, but never receive any real of lasting help. I've been sort of self medicating myself with the drug ecstasy (MDMA) for the last 3 years or so. However, I hear one of the long term side effects of the drug is more depression. I pretty much feel sad and depressed as soon as the drug wears off, but while im on it, I feel fine. When I do XTC I find myself thinking that this is what I should feel like all the time. One bad side effect seems to be that I sleep only about an average of 2 hours per night and offen I go 3-5 days without sleep. Any suggestions? or any ideas of how I might get a legal drug that provides similar effects to the illicit drug ecstasy?