ive always been afraid to go to a physician about the things i am going through. i had always assumed that i had mild depression and if i could overcome it myself, then therapy or medication is unnecessary. Lately, ive developed new feelings and after researching it, i show every sign of this dependency personality disorder. so here it is...

ive always been in a relationship. always. never having a lapse in between. im currently in a relationship now, and he consumes me. ive lost my confidence, i surrender in any argument i am in, and i am severely afraid of loosing him. at all. im afraid when he goes to work and im home alone. i cant eat or sleep when he goes out of town with his friends, and if he doesnt answer the phone when i call, i become obsessed with calling him over and over and over again until i hear his voice. he went back home to stay with his family while waiting for a job in another state and we had plans to move together in the next couple weeks. i am literally afraid to go into my home now that he isnt here. i cant sleep in my bed without him. i cant go a day without calling him.

theres more, but to keep it short, these are just a few of the things directly effecting my life. so what do i do? what are some things to help cope with the loneliness? how do i stay motivated to go on and keep up with my responsibilities?

these forums are supposed to allow us to help each other, so for those who are actually diagnosed or even if you arent, what are some things to help???