Hi, so we moved to a new country for my education (university), but im going crazy here, i cant study at all, i procrastinate all the time, and im letting my family down. My mom doesn't even want to stay here but my dad is making her because im a girl and i shouldn't be left alone in their opinion. My dad does not live here because his job is in another country which makes it even harder for my mom to survive here. I'm not the best kid either, im a very untidy person, i don't help my mom at all and she thinks im rude and selfish as well (that is not my problem fully as she also has an attitude problem). She keeps on saying you ruined our lives and wants us to go back but i tell her my future will go to waste there and she tells me that i never study and that i sleep all the time. That is true, but she doesn't know that i really cant, and she doesn't understand the excuse of depression for it. I sleep like a polar bear and cant focus whatsoever, idk how im going to get into university. She says we are all going through this trouble for you at least make use of it and study but what can i do when i really truly cant study, my brain literally stopped working and taking information in. Also i cant mention anything about a psychologist to them as my father doesn't believe in them and when i told my brother to make an appointment with one, he ignored me and i think its because of the money. I personally don't like spending my dads money on my own problems. my other family members have also huge problems which doesn't help my situation. The universe is totally against me, anything i do is wrong, and all the bad things happen to me one after another. I really don't know how i can go on like this.