I cannot share anything with Mom. She is struggling with her own issues. My dad and brothers death. Although its been a while, she can't seem to deal with it. And don't want help. I cannot confide this in her. So dealing on my own with my T. I do go out and walk or hit stuff in the garage. But it just keeps getting harder. I feel like a dinamite stick ready to explode. Seeing T on the 25th and she wants me committed for a while so maybe I'll do that. Just to get over the worst. I don't know. Maybe it will help. Taking Mom and everyone out of the line of fire. If I can just sleep it will be better.