when i say "T" i mean therapist. i am looking for change. thats why im still going atm. im saying i dont want to see a different therapist because i hate fishing for therapists. id rather stay with the 1-2 i first check out. i dont have friends. dont make friends out of severe paranoia (which meds cant seem to help). im not really sociable by nature. im ok with that (how do i explain it.. im kind of like schizoid in way. not clinically though im sure). im more willing to pay to let my thoughts out than share time with someone i could care less about. what im saying is the therapy is helping in certain aspects by letting my thoughts out. she says she cant help me but i dont want to "go fishing" again.
not sure if i just explained it right.