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Oh, ok, I see what is going on here clearer. And my advice on this is for your best interest. You have a good heart and I can understand how you like this young man and connect with him based on your own insecurities. As you mentioned, you are both very shy and somewhat introverted. And you are both exploring the reasons behind this.
Silent, you do have to know that you alone cannot FIX him and yes, he is exploring his inner confusion about his sexuality. And I can see that part of what he is doing is looking at you as a woman and wondering about what it must be like to be a woman. And with your own lack of experience in your own sexuality this is a big challenge to YOU. I honestly don't see a normal relationship in all of this to be honest. And this is not critisizing you in any way. This is a very difficult issue for both of you. And neither of you have a lot of experience or real knowledge about the dimentions of what is going on psychologically here.
Now, the fact that you DO want to follow a natural couse that ivolves kissing is a sign that you have some normal sense of a normal interaction between opposite sexes. And there is a part of you that is attracted to him and does want to consider a relationship in the normal sense of what that means. He doesn't really have that silent as you can see. And you have not truely explored your own sexuallity yet so this situation is not really fair to you because it puts too much doubt into the mix here.
In a situation like this, at least one party should know their own sexuality first. This is a lot to deal with and can add to your own confusion, and that is exactly what is taking place here. You cannot base your own sexuality on this situation where he is truely confused about who he is and what his own body is struggling with. This confusion he has most likely is based in his genetic make up and it is clear there is something that is challenging him. This is a difficult area and this is going to confuse you and you may make some conclusions about yourself in this that isn't healthy for you to be honest. And you cannot give him this decision he is trying to make about himself, it is already causing you confusion.
It really sounds like he is using you to explore your body for something he wants himself, a female body. And he may even end up disliking you because what he is doing is using your body and thinking more about wanting it to be his to explore and have as his own sexuality. Silent, you cannot give him that, and I am worried that the more you let him do this, the harder it will be for him and it may turn into something that you just do not have any real capacity to deal with or understand.
This is pretty deep and troubling and has no real relationship in the mix that will prove healthy for either of you IMO.
I understand that you like him because of the other qualities he has, but this trouble he has with identifying his sexuality is truely over your head. This question of his is not something you can decide for him and you cannot continue to try to do something for him that is just not good for you. Yes, everything you are saying here, "I AM CONFUSED" is the result of you trying to understand something that you truely have no real capacity to understand or solve.
His resolve is not going to have anything to do with your ability to have a normal relationship. His resolve is not going to answer any of YOUR own questions about YOU and YOUR SEXUALITY.
This situation is not healthy for you. I think that you should just be friends and leave his problems up to a professional that can help him figure this out.
Open Eyes
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