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Originally Posted by Rose Panachée
I am sorry! I am just coming across this now. Sometimes I miss posts and then find them days later ... 5-minutes away still applies, though 
I JUST spoke with my T about the very thing ... it's not WORK that gets to me (I actually love the industry and the actual creativity about it all), it's the people that sometimes push my last button...a member recommended a book to me which I am reading now and it helps a little bit.
Also, yes, I have certain areas of town that are totally off limits and if I go anywhere near them I start panicking. And I also have found myself hiding because I am so afraid (A got so bad I didn't leave home).
So, it's been a time since you posted (again sorry I didn't find sooner). How are you doing?! Hugs |
Being around the people at work is driving me absolutley over the top. For the VA disability I have to explain how I am having a hard time adjusting to civilian life. My pride is getting in the way, I hate to admit that I have trouble with authority that I have no respect for. In the military you might not respect the person but you respected the rank. I don't have that to fall back on at work. I have to explain to the board why I almost took down a supervisor that snuck up behind me and crooked her arm around my neck ( Flashback to the sexual and physical assult). I stopped myself at the last second from snapping her like a twig when I saw the look of horror in her face. She was just kidding around
When I talked to the VA counselor I was informed that it was because I was angry not because of the PTSD or flashback and I need to have better control over my actions. I was beating myself up enough about almost killing the supervisor ( she is also a friend) I didn't need the T getting on me.
I think right now I just want to say screw it all, take the dogs and move into a cave in the mountains. That way I don't have to worry about other people and saying or doing something wrong.