I have an appointment next week, hopefully get this done & over with. i don't know why i've put it off that long.
all of your answers are very helpful. there are things i definitely recognize in myself, feeling empty and bored all the time, like you said. very true. i've always identified myself with where i am or who i'm with or what i'm doing. looking back i swear i can hardly recognize that confident, hard working person i used to be 3 years ago. almost laughable if it wasn't so tragic.
fear of abandonment i'm not sure about. in the past i used to feel compelled to call friends in weird times, even if theres nothing to say, just to make sure they still like me or wanna be friends with me. real issue with boundaries. but i spend a lot of time by myself. not by choice, i always feel like people hate me so i just don't bother anyone.
its complicated. your answers are all great, guys. i didn't know if its possible to have both.
thanks for sharing