Drinking is more for an addict than not being conscious. Drinking is surrendering to that addiction, giving up control, letting ... whatever ... have its way with us perhaps during blackouts.

Drinking is struggling again to find some shard of "me" amid the chaos of the drunk that I can reconstruct (again) into a whole person, who needs to crawl along the path to sobriety (again).

Drinking isn't one drink, just a way not "to be conscious" till some alarm clock wakes us. One drink for an addict may be a lost afternoon, a spell in jail, time in-and-out of awareness of a loved-one's face watching anxiously from some ICU bedside. It may be death. We just don't know where that one drink will take us.

But we do know that drinking is not a solution. Drinking for an addict, like us, adds to whatever problems exist. There are enought already.

Write. Make a mask. Do something physical--physically exhausting (but not physically risky). Go to a dog park or a shelter and exhaust a few dogs. There are mindless safe activities to lose yourself in.

Go, get lost, in some way that will help but a way you can come back from & won't have to pay or suffer any more for.

Roadie