Hello prettyangel and welcome here. This is a good place to talk about and find support for your problems.

I wonder if you have talked to someone like a doctor or a counselor about your feelings? Many forms of help are available whether you just need some counseling to understand and overcome these feelings, or more intense treatment if these problems are very severe and are seriously impacting your ability to enjoy life. You may have a medical condition that effects your feelings, and that can be treated as well.

If you have not discussed this with anyone, talking about it here may be a good place to start. You can see how others may have had similar problems and how they were able to overcome them. There is also information on the home page here about different sorts of personality problems that may help you clarify what is going on, how bad it is, and what you may need. There is a section here specifically for personality disorders, but feel free to read and post whereever you feel it might be relevant.

Good luck, understanding that help is needed, and seeking it, are the biggest steps toward feeling better.

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