I am in the same boat lately. I was ready to check myself into UCLA just so I could get away from some of these people...they are ridiculous: spoiled, entitled punks who expect the world revolves around them.

I am (what feels like) wasting so much time every day and night and even in T just trying to put up with their antics and dealing with them that I just feel even more miserable. It sounds selfish but I want to work on me: not teach others how to be empathetic, respectful, decent human beings.

Please be gentle with yourself regarding that incident with the Supervisor. If I had the skills, I probably would have done the same thing. it's part of your training. And how could anyone NOT understand that ... if someone laid hands on any of us, we would definitely defend ourselves. Especially at the office / in public without consent. Your S should have known better.

(I was at a large function (UGH thinking about it...a lot of people smushed into a very, very small space. it was hot, stuffy, etc.). My (beloved) dad (!) came up from behind me and tapped me on the shoulder, and I jumped about a foot...poor Dad. I felt bad).

I hadn't been diagnosed yet, either, so all I knew is that I was suffering terribly from extreme anxiety, sad and agoraphobia....just going to that function took everything I had to get there and nobody knew how much I was suffering.

I just keep reminding myself of something one of the other members wrote to me just the other day ... perhaps it would help a little: think of a trigger as a clue (pieces of the puzzle coming together) It's exhausting, though.

I'm grateful we all have each other. Try to be gentle with yourself and big hugs! you're getting through another day ... with us! we are all getting through another day