after returning to this thread may i add one more thing. when i became an alcoholic it was recommended i not "squeak by" if a doc prescribed a barbituate/narcotic because it could set off my desire for eventually returning to my drug of choice-alcohol. thus i avoid any drugs except when they are absolutely necessary-operation for example. i had a friend who was a heroin addict. he switched to another drug telling himself it was ok cause it wasn't heroin. (denial) eventually/not long after- he found himself using heroin again. each attempt he made like this always took him back to heroin. sadly the final outcome was fatal.
but pluto only you an decide what to do. i'm glad you posted cause it seems you are unsure about the drinking. that could be a sign you are concerned.
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