Title explains it all.
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I'm not in the midst of an episode, don't even feel depressed. Just too tired to fight or hold on. No job, no money, no prospects. I've failed my daughter. I'm a deadweight leech sucking my family dry. Time to exit is nearing, not tonight tho. Have to get my ducks in a row first,not sure how long it'll take, but left a note for my brother to let you guys know.
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I'm calm, my decision is logical, don't want any 'run to the ER' or 'reasons to live speeches'. Meds can't give me a job and get me out of debt. The reasons to live are the same reasons to die. My mom and daughter will be well looked after by my sister. She'll never have to worry where the next meal will come from. She refuses to leave now bcoz I'm stuck at home. Jordan will be in the care of people better equipped. My family has survived death before, they'll survive mine too.
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Just wanted to let my friends know the truth. Don't feel bad, I don't.