I am on medication, have been on just about every medication possible (maybe not every combination though).

These things I play out in my mind feel like I have no control over them. They just start up out of nowhere and without cause.

There have been several instances where my thoughts with actually make me get angry with someone for no real reason. For example, I can meet a friend of a friend, or even a person at random, and start having these conversations with myself and can actually talk myself into hating them (or talk myself into thinking that the person is out to get me), without them even saying anything. Another example of something I do is I start cursing someone out in my head and then play out the hostility or anger at the person. Something else that comes to mind is if I have to do something like call someone I play it out in my head, making the worst of it and will actually feel embarrassed or foolish or something to that extent (something as weird as this will prevent me from doing what I need to, i.e. like making the call).

I will add more examples as I figure out how to explain them. I have been trying to explain this to my psychiatrist, but this is really the first time I've been able to explain any of what is going on to anyone or even myself for that matter.

Sorry for the long reply to a simple question, just writing this out so I can better understand it and explain it to my Pdoc.