Appreciate the responses, really I do. You guys are great. I've been jobless for a year now, not even a single interview, I give up. But the other reason I didn't want any speeches is bcoz honestly, I'm done. I don't want to do this anymore, it's not like I'm any good at it anyway. I just want out already, and it's a comfort to think that my family will be better off financially. I know they'll hurt, but they'll move on eventually. I just hope I articulated effectively in my letters, I don't want them to think they could've saved me... I don't want this anymore, i don't. I just want to bow out gracefully. It sucks that I have to wait tho, but it's ok. Thank you for caring