It's been 2.5 weeks since I saw you. There's so much going on at the moment which I know you need to know but I can't tell you. I can't tell anyone.

Things with my intake are going to spiral out of control again. You know I'm down 30kg and you think I'm almost at my goal, I'm not, I'm only half way there. I know I should be following my diet plan but I have had so much food in the last 2 weeks while I've been at mums. I need to feel empty and I need to see the numbers drop.

I see you tomorrow. I don't know what to say. Maybe I shouldn't come?