Hate to have to break the news to you twisted soul - once the door starts opening theres no way to go back. I tried every way possible to close that door. Even stayed out of therapy for I think 7 years. The end result was I lost it. and with it in part caused some of my own childs problems. I know that Im not to blame for his having a chemical imbalance of the brain mental disorder but I sure didn't help it any by having him see me go over the edge from depression to active suicide mode.

Its a hard road but I promise you taking care of it now is better then having it come back to take a huge chunk of you life and possibly your future children along with it. If I had it to do over again I would have listened 20 years ago when a counselor told me that she thought I had DID and then listened a couple years after that when I was tested and confirmed DID. And I sure wish now I had taken care of all this back then for at least then my child would be here at home where he belongs instead of the foster care system between treatment facilities.

There is no way around it, under it or over it. Unfortunately we survivors have no choice but go straight though it.

Hang in there