I do nto think my parents tried to smother me. I do despise being controlled or manipulated. I am not quite certain about the people are not like books thing is. Reading books is how I understand or learn about most things. Therapy books make no sense to me and seem only to be a bunch of smug condescending jerks who talk about their insights or "interventions" and how the good patients love them and the bad ones are resistant. I understand books on quantum physics easier than therapy. Sometimes, therapists are just simply wrong and sometimes they simply need to explain and explain again.

POSSIBLE TRIGGER


I did want to tell someone about my parent and I did not want to have to deal with any reaction from the person I told. Hence the therapist.

I am very frustrated and want to destroy every connection I have with anything. I won't destroy anything, but I have a great fantasy about blowing myself up in a huge fiery ball or being crushed by a wall or something and then walking away from the rubble alone (this is a fantasy so I am not dead) and never have a need for another human interaction ever. In the fantasy, the pets and all other humans are fine.