its hard to look forward to a life when you know that you are a terrible person. to watch people suffer a world of people suffering, i have only seen peoples humanitarians side because they love me. But why do people course through life so strong and unsheathed by the daily struggles and indifference to just pretend everythings ok. Does life actually get better or is it all an illusion for the naive minds of the young. Somtimes i feel i am to wise for my own good, i have a realistic mind, a mind that sets me far from others but also closer to people than before. I dont know how to move forward, i make bad decisions and are leading down a road i dontwanna follow the solution seems clear, but it is harder than it seems.