ever since i can remember, people have said that i am bright. i was in the creative kid classes in elementary school, liked to write poetry, and i have always been good at written exams. i think being told i am smart went to my head and made me arrogant, but i am also lazy.

also ever since i can remember, i hardly do any homework. i am 22 and dropped out of two colleges, but even since 3rd grade probably before, i just don't do homework.

i used to watch a lot of television when i wasn't doing homework, and now i despise television for it's affect on behaviour and thinking. i used to play a lot of guitar and read a lot of books or ride bike and mostly listen to music. ahh getting off track.

the point is i stop thinking about schoolwork when i walk out of the classroom. it never seemed too relevant to me even if it was interesting. i just stop thinking about it, forget to write it in my planner, just block it from my mind.

this is really just a reflective journal for me. i'm sure you've heard my story before. spoiled and lazy. now it translates to other parts of my life.

i just don't feel like this school and employment system is for me. i don't get the point but i don't know how to escape it. i never really feel prepared for anything but there's no carrot on a stick for me to chase. graduation, degrees, salary don't mean anything to me