I've been feeling miserable, completely exhausted from worry, frustration and fear. At least I'm not angry anymore (that takes sooo much out of me).

I finally was able to let some of that go doing role-playing with my T, and by better asserting myself at work (I'm a work in progress though. I think I came off more P/A than assertive, which I don't like about myself, but I am trying. And frankly, I don't care if they like me. I'm trying to do my job). It's a win/win, I guess