I have been in therapy for two plus years. Within this period of time I learned I was DID. I am now able to understand that the myriad of thoughts in my head were alters. On many levels I am still coming to terms with it. I have not discussed a specific trauma with my therapist. I told her about getting beaten, neglected and verbally abused from a very young age. I told her about my father molesting me when I was eleven. But there is something that happened to me when I was two or three. I can guess at what it might be but I don't know. My system does not think I am ready. I have asked even begged to be told but all I get is "not yet". My therapist wants me to talk about thing that might have happened when I was three. My system does not. Should I push my system to talk during therapy about what I remember at age three and see if other memories pop up? Am I taking too long to get into the probable reason for my DID? My t thinks we are moving too slow. I am new to therapy and am not even sure what is meant by "too slow". She is a good therapist but sometimes I don't think she understands how I have to just fight my way through my thoughts just to get to therapy much less some
memory I am afraid of recalling. It is all very confusing.