Your circumstances aren't the same as mine, but take a look a few days back at my thread titled "don't know". I said the same things you are saying now. I felt so tired, crushed, devastated, defeated, use any other words you want. I get so tired of people telling my why I ought to live. I was in the same kind of place you're in now. I get so tired of people telling my why I ought to live. Then look a little further up at my thread "made it". The people here at PC really care. They probably saved my life.

I know you can find it in yourself to keep going. You're so much stronger than me, you've been a help and encouragement when I was at my worst. Let us help you. Just stay with us and keep posting.