Is this even legal? Recording someone without their permission? I didn't think it was.

I'm really sorry, because this is truly awful. I can imagine, I have a big imagination. I would not be able to handle that at all.

What can you do to help yourself out here? Do you think he will change? It doesn't sound like he thinks he has any problems. You deserve to have a relationship that is caring, respectful, and compassionate, with understanding. Why do people treat the person they are supposed to love the most, the worst? That's not love.

If you want better for yourself, and you do deserve better than this, if he isn't willing to do or be that, then you have to decide. Do you want it to always be like this, or not. Because some people will not change.