Wow that's sooo not cool!! I have kind of the same problem - only verbal recordings because I tend to get VERY loud and shout. But the thing that hits home is "my husband is my bigest trigger" I am a teacher and love the noise level in my class and yes the silly 9 year olds irritating the crap out of me when I'm down - I never go off at them, but when I step in at home when H is there or see him my mindset changes instantly. My husband has noticed this and commented on it (when we are between friends I am very loving) My T says I have to figure out why this happens. Can you honestly blame your husband as being a tigger????? Just curious.