Dear T -
I really, really need your help right now. I sent you the txt message update like you asked, and I know I didn't ask for you to call me. But, I really wish you'd read between the lines and call me anyway. If I ask you to call me, I'll feel like a failure. It's hard to be strong right now, though, and I wish I didn't have to be. It's hard to not give in to bad coping skills, and I'm resisting but I'd rather give in. It's hard to stay present and not just check out from reality and crawl in a hole.