Hey! Good to hear from. Is there anyone you feel secure enough with to make a safety contract? They made me write and sign them several times this past week before they would let me leave the hospital because I was cutting and suicidal. I refused to sign anything open ended because I didn't know what might happen, but would sign one short term. The longest I ever gave them was three days, but it helped me a lot. Knowing that I had given my word and was accountable to someone to keep myself safe forced me to keep going through a crisis several times. Just something that has helped me, maybe you can find it useful too.

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