Thanks for sharing this WePow. I'm doing a really bad job of resisting the temptation to engage in self destructive behaviors right now as well. I've come to the conclusion that a lot of my stressors are stemming from work. I do a great job of putting on my "professional personality" while I'm there, but then I crash at home and spend every moment I'm NOT at work, dreading going back. I have the sneaking suspicion it may wind up getting me in trouble, but I've decided it's healthier to start standing up for myself more at work, so I can be in better shape when I go home. It's a very scary thing for me to stand up for myself, so I'm not sure if it really spells doom or not, but I fell pretty "doomful" already so to heck with it.