I think you need to take the medication your Dr. prescribed for you. And I am sorry your Dad is putting you on a guilt trip. Depression is a disease, there is nothing your dad could have done different for it not to happen. I understand as a parent we want to fix our kids problems and kiss them away and everything will be better, but sometimes we just can not do that. Maybe your Dr. could talk to your dad so he would have a better understanding of depression and anxiety. I wish you well.