I think Roseheart101 has an excellent thought....trust yourself. From that I believe that listening to your "gut instinct" is very important. It may or may not be easy for you to do. Many times someone has such deep rooted behaviors that it's very difficult to find the gut instinct and to be able to trust it and listen to it. But, it can be done! My friend has learned and it's helped her to make better decisions for herself when she listens to it.

Claritytoo, I'm glad you have a specialized T. She knows you better than anyone else here and maybe she knows that it's time for you to take another path in your healing process. By all means, discuss this with her and ask her what she has in mind. There is no harm in trying and if you find that it's not working well, let her know. It will be difficult, there is no doubt about it. Take your steps as you feel should, but know that it's okay to push a little beyond your comfort zone a little at a time.

I wish you much success in your journey. We're here to listen about the good things and the not so good things when you need to talk.