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Originally Posted by summeryoga
I realize this thread probably won't get seen by many eyes because there are so few people here in the Histrionic forum, but maybe just maybe someone in this forum, or someone at all, will connect to it?
Does anyone else in the world ever feel like a walking exposed nerve where feelings are just so ****ing intense all the time?
I feel everything so intensely, that I feel my feelings well up out of nowhere in a split second, only to wash over and penetrate my entire being - body, mind, and all. It seems that everything moves me. I see someone suffer, and I feel it everywhere; I think about human or animal suffering, and I feel it everywhere; I feel like a failure, and I feel it everywhere. I swear that when I kill a bug by mistake, I actually grieve. The blessing in this is, when I love someone ... and I love people very easily ... I feel it everywhere. But then when they split, I feel that everywhere, too.
Venting, I suppose.
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...Oh my god I hate this I am in a stupid rush and I hate this because I must talk to you ....dear darling thing and your beautiful but painful exposed nerve.
....you know what glorious A?....it's something I can sometimes relate to and I mean that and it's true and if it were not for someone like you I would not be able to suddenly and remarkably witness on a superordinary level, the magnificence of feelings about love.
It grieves me insinctively and beyond my bones that in order for you to experience the full force of love and in all aspects....that you must experience the punishing extremes that coincide...
...and I expect you get little time to recover somewhere in the middle there?........
It is a gift an otherwordly transparency so that all may see and experience and damn it I'm so grateful I have stumbled into your path in my mental clumsy manner and you have effortlessly scooped me up into your infinitely adoring self.
....and I know it is painfull for you A....an agony like you describe.
more on this later ....lovingly, J...XO
