I have never really been in love, and being with this girl has really opened me up to what love can be. I have to try to keep her while I am going through this. I dont think I am looking for someone else for wholeness, but just looking for a hug and a comforting word. I know I have to work through this, but I equate this to a nightmare. When I finally wake up from this I would like her to be there. I know I am playing with fire, but I have to atleast make an attempt. I really dont want to lose her. I started therapy when I first met her, I probably should have started earlier in my life but then I might not have met her? I am not the most spiritual person, but if things were meant to happen they will happen. I am a very determined person, so I will give this my best shot and see what happens. I really appreciate your input. Thank you very much.

Mike