I just wanted to add something else to this thread to keep myself aware of what is going on. I finally started to write in a journal today and noticed another element that I need to change. There have been many times that I have let people influence what I think and how I feel.

The last job I worked at had a stigma that the owner was out to take advantage of you and that he was generally underhanded. People would come up with all kinds of stories and start all types of rumors, but for some reason I would let all these stories/rumors run wild in my mind. What I mean by that is I would actually take them seriously and start making up more nonsense. I would let every word people said, and what I added, stress me out and build to a level where I broke.

Things like this happen very often in my life, business and personal, and always end bad for me. It makes no sense to me that I would get all bent out of shape over things that probably aren't true and may not even have anything to do with me at all. I guess what I am saying is that it is amazing how your imagination, if you focus on the negative, can create such pain and cause you to act so foolishly.