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Originally Posted by BatsAndButterflies
I understand what you are going through with this. I wasn't diagnosed until last year which was my first year of college.
I hate taking my meds. They make me nauseous, more anxious than I already am (got pills for that too), and give me horrible insomnia.
Days when I do not take my meds, I feel like the laziest person in the world or I feel like I surrounded by laughing gas (those are fun).
Sometimes I just want so badly to be normal. I don't want to have to work 10 times as hard just to pay attention in class and keep up with my assignments. I hate zoning out constantly and looking stupid when I'm extremely intelligent and creative.
You just have to keep in mind that the drug is to help give you what you need to succeed. Though you may not feel as free, you have the tools you need to get stuff done. Just try your best not to let the meds take away who you are.
And I don't know if this was any help at all, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone!
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I was diagnosed eleven years ago and I've been on every kind of medication. I've been taking Concerta for about four years now and I can never sleep. It's been three days since I've slept. I'm losing my mind. I want to be normal and go to class and sleep like every other person. When I was 12, my IQ was 132 but here I am seven years later with a below 2.0GPA at a school with a 93% acceptance rate. I'm not lazy, I'm too energetic. I can't do anything. I can't get myself to even take my meds to help me because I am so close to being done with everything. I rationalize that losing even one day of the rest of my life to a pharmaceutical stupor is pathetic and not want I want.
I don't know if any of that was even relevant but I needed to unload. You are a huge help. I feel so alone all the time. I have such bad social anxiety, I have literally communicated with someone three times in the past month, you being one of them and my sister the other two times. Thank you so much for listening to my nonsense.