Yes it would be more ammo. The thing that sticks out to me is that you say when it's good it's soooo good. Have you read much about the cycle of abuse? This goes for emotional abuse as well as physical. And oh boy do I know that feeling. When you are in an abusive relationship, it cycles from great, to abuse, and eventually makes it's way back to amazing. For one abusers are good at " honeymoon phase" which is the phase between the abuse. Two, you are so happy and releived that things seem good again, that it literally seems amazing, so you cling to that. And three, the abuse happens more and more frequently than before, the time shortens between incidents. Which is what you just described.

Please google that and look into it, see if it sounds familiar. Maybe you already know that. Just putting it out there, because this sounds incredibly familiar to me.