Didn't have it in me to tell my T I broke sobriety

I just kind of avoided the issue... maybe next week I'll bring it up :\
She has been trying to get me to see a physician the past few weeks, I kept telling her I'd call, make the appointment, but I kept pushing it away. She had me call while I was with her today to set up an appointment... I know I should go get a wellness exam, get assessed for other issues, but I absolutely
dread going to physicians... T offered to go with me to my appointment, help make it a little easier for me, lessen the anxiety a little :\ We spent our session today talking about all the anxiety I've been feeling lately, and how it's been building up. Bleh.
I want to spend the day intoxicated, but I am attempting to push the cravings away, I have so much work I need to get done for school, around the house. Keep reminding myself that there are better things to do with my time than intoxication. It seems like after discussing issues with T I feel worse more often than not, the cravings are exacerbated. But usually the feeling subsides after a couple hours, and I feel better. I'm hoping that will be the case today...
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