Who here has watched the 2011 film Thor? And please don't throw things at me for posting this in the Bipolar forum; I'm gonna explain! (J/K I know you won't throw things at me)

Okay, the obvious explanation is that my primary diagnosis is Bipolar II and when there's something weird going on with me and I don't know where to put it this here forum is my first choice.

Well, I watched Thor only a few days ago and Loki had my sympathy from the very beginning to the very end. In fact, it was more than sympathy. I saw myself in him. I've felt fierce jealousy in the past and it has taken me so far that I would have destroyed myself or my rival or both if only I had the means. And Tom Hiddleston's acting was nothing short of perfect imho. It was a great movie and I liked one of the characters in it very much and I enjoyed Tom H's performance. Nothing wrong with that so far, eh?

Now the problem is that I had buried that side of me under a heap of other things. I've been almost indifferent towards the thing I was once so jealous about and I haven't been suicidal for more than a year. But it feels as if Loki has brought out the worst in me. Well, not exactly the worst, but the somewhat darker side of my personality. I was so frustrated the other day that I said to my best friend: "Damn Loki! I feel as if I'm really under the influence of the God of Mischief!" and no need to say, she was considerably alarmed by this remark. I'm a 19 year old girl and I wonder if Tom Hiddleston's attractiveness may have anything to do with this. I just can't get his ******* face out of my mind, but it's mostly the character's intensity. Could this be just some silly girly obsession? I seriously hope it's nothing worse.

Thank you if you have read the stupid rant to the end