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Originally Posted by Open Eyes
(((Rose)))),
If it is any help, what I noticed is that while I am trying to deal with my PTSD, yes, it can be very absorbing all by itself. I find that my patience level is often low and I can get short tempered more so than I used to. Remember, everything gets magnified with PTSD. So keeping that in mind as you try to get through your days with others that may not pay attention to directions you give or the way things should run. You have to remind yourself that when these things happen you have to make extra special effort to not just over react and get angry. It can be a challenge Rose, but just keep reminding yourself to pay attention and slow down. You will get better at it little by little. Sad to say, other people truely don't know how much effort it is for you to manage all that is going on with you personally right now.
What I have found is that I am now trying to develope a new part of myself that steps in, talks to me, tells me to calm down and find ways to remind myself that I can choose not to let others get to me or disable me. It has been helping me a lot Rose, you can do this too.
(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes
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Thank you...you are absolutely correct. I anticipated all of this ridiculousness months ago (
) and they have proven me right (they are awful
).
Seriously, though, thank you for reminding me about the magnification, over-reaction and shorter temper.
I am trying soo hard, too, and they have noo idea how hard this is for me.
thanks for mentioning that.
Also, does this happen to you: when I get to the point with someone that I feel angry or especially surprised or disgusted (trigger?), I immediately don't trust them anymore.
And then, they notice a change in behavior on my part. But I'm not shouting or being verbally abusive or anything...they just seem to think I wasn't as "nice" as I used to be. And I tend to avoid them as much as possible. Unless they earn my trust again.
That is so sad
I feel so awful admitting that.
I will work on that!