The videotaping thing would throw me off too. Where i go it's videotaped bc the T's are students , but i knew this from the beginning. Also, it would be different if i felt like a group of people who were gonna be messing with my therapy and changing rulws etc... were watching the tapes. Ugh. Sorry about the hives and stuff. May angels surround you, and give those supposed to be helping you good counsel.