((((Hamartia)))),

Oh this is what is called PTSD and these feelings you are having is what people experience when struggling with PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist? You have to work through PTSD you can't pretend it away. I see you have been diagnosed with PTSD so that is why I am telling you that what you are expressing here is part of the way people with PTSD feel.

We do have a forum for PTSD where you can post and connect with others that struggle too and are working through it.

Welcome to PC, you can work through this and do much better sweetheart, but you have to do it in therapy. And we have a nice group of supporters here too.

(((Hugs)))
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