Your welcome kiwiguy,I have had many many days of tears for real I a big man wow I like ICE melting sucks bad never have I been so upset in the last 22 years .My wife an I,was same room but wow so distance, is so heart taking to be with hole family, an have to go through all this. I really trying to look at the positive things but it is so so hard when all I do is think the worst case possible, I wouldn't wish anything like this on my worse enemy. I feel so rejected and unwanted, I could puke my stomach turns all day long at work , I have lost over 20 pounds not eating right just feel like S@iT . We was several times alone an intimate a week, to ZERO in last month. I text her books to try to get her to open up but the walls are untouchable so far no luck for me yet, I will keep trying my best as everyday passes to get through.