I hate it when I am sitting there with T and all I can say is "i don't know". last time I was there at one point I was just staring off into space and realized it and shook myself back to reality and she asked "where were you just now" and I'm like "i don't know". what are you feeling? i don't know. well do you want to just sit quietly for a bit? i don't know.

ok so I probably very well DO know, but don't wanna say, and then I feel bad for wasting her time and my money. I don't go spinning off into this vicious circle very often, but when I do it's a doozy. Usually she can't shut me up and has to kick me out cuz I don't ever want to leave. Weird vibes this week. I dunno if it's from her or me. probably me though.....

Weird vibes though. Definitely.