It doesn't seem right not to release your medical records unless you meet with him. They should release your medical records except in the event that they can show that you might harm yourself if you see them. But I don't know -- perhaps the laws in your state are different.

I think what he told you about your diagnosis not mattering and how he treats the symptoms was a stalling tactic. He clearly wants to wait until he sees you in person to discuss the diagnosis. Which I actually think is the responsible thing for him to do. You are being insistent though, and he is trying to politely stall you, rather than tell you outright that he won't tell you the diagnosis until he meets with you in person.

I think you need to take a deep breath and take a step back here. He really is doing the responsible thing by waiting to explain this diagnosis to you at your next appointment. You already have some idea what the diagnosis is going to be -- either schizophrenia or schizoaffective most likely. I doubt it will come as much of a shock to you. And you can research these two disorders now while you wait for your next appointment with him.

I guess I just don't understand why you feel so anxious to know exactly what he wrote immediately? What do think will change if you know right now, as opposed to a few weeks from now?